As much as I
would prefer to write
about my
desire for long loving
embraces,
deep passionate kisses
and lingering
flirtatious eye contact,
I find that I
am too obsessed with
my own
wellness.
Or for lack
of a better term,
my perceived
wellness in spite
of this
pandemic.
Every minor
sniffle, soreness,
ache or
minor indigestion is met with
concerns for my own well-being.
concerns for my own well-being.
And concerns
for those who may
have been
around me.
I don’t feel
sick or have any actual
symptoms of
illness, but I am too
terrified of
it all to actually feel well.
I don’t feel
well.
I don’t feel
well because I can’t
feel a soft special
kiss on my lips
before I go
to bed. I don’t feel well
because I
sit alone on my sofa so
often my ass
groove has its own ass
groove.
I don’t feel
well because of all
the stupid
around. Stupidity moving
almost as
quickly as the virus, if not
moving
faster. I feel like Pope Clement VI
who surrounded
himself with burning torches
in the hopes
of blocking the Black Death in 1347.
While there’s
no indication surrounding oneself
with burning
torches all day, every day, can stop
the spread
of stupidity or the Black Death, Pope Clement VI never
contracted
the Black Death and lived.
Plus torches
are sort of passé.
So, there’s
that.
I miss
feeling an honest wellness,
and writing
about loving, passion,
and general humanness.
I miss just
feeling
something other than constant
dread and anxiety.
So I guess I
don’t feel well.