Friday, July 30, 2021

A Villain

 


“Thou art a villain,” Tybalt.

Act III, Scene I – Romeo & Juliet.

I thought of this quote on

my drive to work this

morning.

 

I was cursing the poor

driving of some unfortunate fool,

who made the mistake of

driving too slow in front of me

in the fast lane.

 

I thought of them: a villain.

Which made me wonder

how often I have been the

villain in other people’s

stories.

 

We all think of ourselves

as the hero of our stories,

it’s common enough to have

its own sort of trope in film

and TV, books and even music.

 

I do my best to never be the

villain at all, but I’m sure in some

telling by others, I’m the worst

person they have ever met and

they hope to never come across me again.  

 

“By my heel, I care not,” Mercutio says.

Which is how I suppose I should

respond to the thought of being the

bad guy in some stranger’s story of

our meeting.

 

Yet, I linger on it.

Villainy. By my hand?

Surely not.

And though, it is likely true.

I have been someone’s villain.

 

A burden unconsciously borne.

Conscience whispering a reminder

to always be better, kinder, gentler,

and be not a weight on the shoulders

of another.  And not be fortune’s fool.


Wednesday, July 28, 2021

1300

 


1300.

That’s where I am.

I’ve written 1300 of

these posts.

1300.

 

One thousand

three hundred

posts on

A Minute with Michael.

Seems like a lot.

 

It would take

you 21.7 hours

to read each one

in a row a minute at a

time.

 

If you read one a day

it would take you

3.6 years to get

through them all.

Years.

 

I’ve spent 11 years

writing them.

I’ve published two

books out of them.

I’m still working on more.

 

I’ve stressed and worried,

laughed and cried,

over each and every word

on these pages.

Every. Single. Time.

 

I hope it’s art.

I hope I’m an artist.

I hope I’m a writer.

I hope I can keep it up.

for another 1300.

 


Friday, July 23, 2021

Silencer


 

The noise of nonsense

is migraine inducing.

Battered eardrums

beaten by the cadence

of crackpots and knowitalls.

 

I long for the silence

of intelligent agreement.

In a crowd, when all agree

that jumping the shark/alligator

flaming pit on a tricycle is probably not

a great idea, it’s pretty quiet.

 

It’s all emphatic nodding and

smiling faces with

open arms miming, “See…”.

When we all agree.

It’s the beautiful Silence of

Harmony.

 

The new noise however,

this constant saber and cage

rattling is the bane of quiet

minds.  It hurts my head.

This constant stupid noise.

 

Hermit Crabs and shellfish

must have figured this out,

turtles too, that a shell of some

kind is a wonderful retreat from

the shouting dumb-dumbs.

Some way to be, without having

to be there amid the cacophony.

 

I’m tired of empty noise,

Substanceless, vapid, megaphone

posturing by numbskulls and

panderers.

The ache is endless.

So we get a drink.

 

So we self-medicate.

Hoping that meaningful

silence will one day return

as lovely as a sunrise over

a calm ocean scene.

Silent.

 


Wednesday, July 21, 2021

Saturday's Man

 



 

Wednesday came into the room.

Her glance at me was sharp and terse.

A look of angry suspicion wore heavily

on her face.

 

I smiled at her, as I always do.

Politely acknowledging her entrance.

I bowed as dictated by protocol and

I took my seat at my desk.

 

She nodded in my direction,

but I could see something was clearly

troubling her. She was obviously not

pleased with me, for some unknown reason.

 

“I hope you have a wonderful day,” I said.

“You too,” she curtly replied.

“Do you have any big plans for the day,” I asked.

I was met with silence as she went about her business.

 

Rebuffed, I sat at my desk.

Unsure of what I could have done to possibly

warrant such a cold reaction to my genuine

sincerity and honest inquiry.

 

I appreciate Wednesday and all her splendor,

she is just not my particularly favorite day.

She can be marvelously witty and wonderful,

but she does not make my heart thump.

 

I know Wednesday is not generally pleased

with this, but I’ve made myself rather clear

on the matter. I enjoy our relationship yet

it is not the one I wish to pursue with any vigor.

 

We can tease and be suggestive,

even be a little raunchy, but it’ll never be the

day for me. I’ll always be Saturday’s Man.

She is for me, the day of days.

 

Saturday’s embrace is gentle and calming,

soothing the coarse bristles of a long week,

she’s sweet, fun, and open to the new and

wild experiences that may present themselves.

 

It’s she whom I yearn for,

and perhaps, in thinking of it,

I can indeed see why Wednesday is

so out of sorts with me.

 

Thursday sneered at me from across

the room, Friday smiled and waved

absently like she does with everyone.

Saturday, typically, hadn’t even bothered to show.

 

The rebel.

I felt the desire in me grow.

She was so dangerous.

So worthy of her pedestal.  

 

Wednesday cleared her throat.

I was brought back from my Saturday

daydreams.

Wednesday started with her list

and I took my notes. Sighing.

 

 

Thursday, July 15, 2021

At the Hour


 

In my own time,

at my own pace,

as I see fit,

I will do what I have

to do.

 

It is not on your clock,

it is not at your speed,

my time is not subject

to the fancy of your whim,

nor the wristwatch of your pleasure.

 

The pressure of time,

is like a great stone,

pressing down on the gears

of my clock, slowing under the heaviness,

speeding when the load is lightened.

 

My time slows or speeds up

relative to the activity required

and the pressure being applied.

It a mental question more than

one of speed, although alacrity

plays its part.

 

Molasses in winter or bottled lightening,

sticky glue or slick grease,

movement takes place when my internal

clock strikes the right hour,

between comfort and frustration.

 

Slow or fast,

it all depends,

on what the hickory dickory dock,

is going on with my interior clock,

it’ll get done,

I’ll be there.

 

In my own time,

at my own pace,

as I see fit,

I will do what I have

to do.

 


Tuesday, July 13, 2021

I'm Missing Good Kissing

 


I’m missing

good kissing.

 

Passionate embraces

with smiling faces.

 

Holding on tightly,

sleeping together nightly.

 

Waking up realizing

there’s no eulogizing;

 

the absence of intimacy,

as she’s still sleeping pleasantly;

 

by your side,

your heart they abide.

 

I’m missing,

good kissing.

 

It’s been such a long while,

for a kiss to be met with a smile.

 

A search for soft, happy lips,

the right hands on hips.

 

I miss the feeling of her eyes on me,

the stirring and swelling of what could be.

 

The excited, pulse-quickened anticipation,

of long and sensual osculation.

 

I’m missing,

good kissing.

 


Friday, July 9, 2021

A Pessimism Spill

 


A pessimism spill may be

flooding my oceans.

There might have been

a subconscious breach,

a burst underwater pipe

releasing a ton

of pessimism.

 

I thought it was just a minor

sarcasm leak but its escalated

to a full-on pessimism spill.

So that sucks.

Like, so much…

everywhere, and I can

hardly bring myself to care.

 

The color of the ocean is changing

fairly rapidly.

From a lovely blue to some sort

of orangish, milky rage goo,

some kind of pessimistic bile fluid

spewing out in fat blobs,

as if you care.

 

I’ve capped it before,

taken a deep breath and

tried to focus on the clean

and clear waters around me,

the optimistic seas on which

I can choose to swim.

It’s a pain though. So much swimming.

 

I often make it to the beach,

where all the lovely bikini women are,

they point and laugh and say,

“You’ll never love again,” and giggle,

I turn back to the water, hoping

to crash against the breakwater

or meet a hungry shark.  

 

Yup.

It’s a full-on pessimism leak,

spewing out into the water.

Sigh.

I’ll get my tools and scuba gear.

 


Friday, July 2, 2021

Hey America, You Got a Minute?


 

Hey America, you got a Minute?

Yes, you.

Fine. North America.

The United States of America,

do you have a minute?

Sheesh, so touchy lately.

 

Sorry we got off to an

awkward start there.

Please come in and

make yourself comfortable,

but not too comfortable,

am I right Guam…? Ha!

 

I’m just kidding of course,

please sit down on the couch

there.

Now, I know it’s your birthday

this weekend and I wanted to

discuss a few things with you

before it got crazy.

 

Please put down the bong.

I know, I know, it’s legal for

most of you now, but this is

important.

Thank you.

Now, as I was saying…

 

You got a lot of problems

you’re not confronting, what with

this party attitude and nonchalant

sort of “they’ll wear themselves out”

thing going on.

It’s really got me worried and I want

you to be okay.

 

Thank you for listening,

now about the guns….

No, no, no, no, no, no, no…

Please don’t get up.

This is important.

 

I know you think you're old enough

to have them, but the evidence doesn’t

really support that. I know you think they’re

cool and all, but there’s a lot of people

getting wounded and killed, lots of kids.


Yeah, kids.

I know it’s terrible.

So that’s why I wanted to

have this minute with you, to sort of,

you know, kindly ask you to

get your shit together.

 

Will you please take that

baseball cap off?

No, I do not want to see your

truck nuts.

Will you please listen?

 

Let’s just say that for your

big boy birthday, number 245

to be fair, that you might want

to start being a little more

responsible for yourself and

all those weapons out there.

 

I know, majority this and that,

but really, you are capable of such

incredible things and are so much

bigger than your petty differences,

why is this teeny issue the one you

get hung up on?

 

It’s not so bad really,

The queen of England doesn’t appear

ready to storm the beaches

of Cape Hatteras anytime soon,

so maybe we can lay off the whole,

right to bear arms thing?

 

Okay, that’s all I wanted to say,

you can go back outside and play

with your friends, don’t be a bully

though and remember play nice and to share.

Okay.

I love you too.

Happy Birthday!


Thursday, July 1, 2021

Needs Me The Most

 


I make myself nervous

when I try to relax,

there’s too much me in there,

in the silent deep breaths,

it makes me too worried

about hearing myself in

front of myself.

 

It’s like being naked

in front of the mirror and thinking,

“Well, that’s not how I remember that,

or that’s not how I thought I looked at

all.” And blushing as I look at

what has happened to my body.

 

The refection in the mirror,

so confident and real,

shames me for thinking that

I won’t be okay, that everything

won’t work out the way it should;

the reflection, a judging carnivore of peace.

 

Even with my eyes closed,

meditating, I worry that I’m

doing it wrong. Then I am

breathing too fast, then too slow,

then not enough or not at all.

I open my eyes and swear.

 

“Shit,” I say.

“Calm the frig down you loon.

It’s just breathing and silence,

rest for the eyes and mind.”

“Shut up,” I reply, “I know what

I’m doing.”

 

But I lie.

Because I don’t know.

I’m too anxious to admit it

to myself, because I don’t want

to let myself down, when I need

me the most.