Wednesday, June 18, 2025

Carnival Nights

 


The Carnival finally came to town. They arrived during a light morning Summer rain shower, and by the time the tents were open, and the rides were set up they had a wet glistening hue sparking in the afternoon Sun, flickering like the facets of a diamond.   The humming generators to power the many rides were hidden away, but the faint noise of electricity could still be heard. An electricity that filled the air with anticipation as the Sun dripped below the horizon.

Every Summer the Carnival came to Maynard Point, and every Summer night the carnival grounds were alive with mystery, infecting the town with mischief and the occasional bar brawl between the Carnies and the Townies. The smell of machine oil and popcorn wafting together in the midnight air of crowded cavalcades and promenades in a mixture of roughnecks and folks, looking for adventures or some respite from the long hectic hours of road life or the mundanity of small town life.

The flickering lights and flashing neon, all just an illuminated façade over a dirty and often dangerous ramshackle collection of various deviants, lifelong Carnies and part-time Roadies. All hungry for the small town girls and boys with big city dreams to prey upon with tales of life on the road and their nostalgic romances of bygone times. Shared over a $8.00 hot-dog and a $3.00 watered down soda pop. A few broken hearts, perhaps more, left in their wake.

The young boys in town, seeing the Ferris wheel lit up against the dark summer night sky, playing siren to their desires for a young girl to ride with, maybe steal a kiss, maybe a little more as they rode up and over the crowds. A rumble in their loins as the very thought of that special person of their imaginings actually agreeing to ride with them. Maybe not who everyone thought.  Their fanciful longings lingering on the potential of young love, lasting forever, all from a kiss on the carnival Ferris wheel.

Cotton candy fingers, sticky with sugar and Summer humidity, play boardwalk games, squirt guns filling balloons, too large basketballs shot into too small hoops, ring tosses for a goldfish doomed to die in days. Amid the joyful laughter of old husbands and wives, grandchildren and teens, as a giant stuffed panda toy is awarded to a young girl at the target range. It’s filled with fiberglass and packing materials, but she’ll never forget it until her mother crams it into the rafters of the garage once she moves to college and then Delaware for her job at the hospital. Until then though, she’ll cherish the padded panda monstrosity, stuffed in a corner of her bedroom, ignoring that odd smell it gives off.

The headbangers and the gangbangers, heckle and posture; while big belt buckled cowboys and tight jeaned hipsters wander through crowds of wildly different political landscapes and ideologies, aware of each other, but unaware. There’s a line for the Italian Ice and Big MAGA Galoots and Top-knot Liberals stand in orderly procession. While a seven-fingered carny fills little ice cream cups and toothlessly smiles at the women in their jean shorts, charging $6.50 a cup. Little wooden spoons litter the walkways and seem to trail off in every direction of the carnival grounds like oars for fairy-boats.

The bumper cars bump and buzz, and passengers squeal and shout, while a teenage girl takes her first sip of a half warm beer offered to her by her older brother’s friend as they pretend to smoke by the back of the ticket counters. She fakes liking both the beer and the cigarette, but really she just wants to puke and go home and remember what it was to be young and not so worried about the boys. And if they think she’s as pretty as Liz.

There’s fireworks on the third night. Rows of townsfolk ooh and ahh as ½ price fireworks explode dangerously close to the ground, deafening the older residents who managed to stay out past eight o’clock, and thrilling the 7 and 8 year olds before they begin to drift off into light night sleepiness, yet deny they are tired.  Teenage hearts beat as high school crushes turn serious with a night of hand-holding, or break into a million pieces when during the fireworks they see their special Johnny or Janey making out with someone else, but they try not to cry, and bite their lip and watch the sky explode, like their broken hearts.

Three nights and four days, the carnival carries on like this, electrified amusements crowded between so many stories. Quickly gone the fourth afternoon, as if run out on a rail, by the sensibilities of cooler heads and those less inclined to mysterious, perhaps criminal proclivities.   Gone until next Summer and then into memory.


Thursday, June 12, 2025

The Weight on Our Chest

 


The weight on my chest
has a weight on its chest,
resting on an anvil,
chained to an anchor,
being pulled under the
current in oceans of familiar
outrage.

 

The long waited shoe,
dropping, is a combat boot,
across the backside of the
weakest among us,
again. A familiar swift kick,
as unoriginal as always,
yet somehow always a surprise.

 

We were ready for it,
we knew it was coming,
at least the weight of
anticipation has dissipated
slightly, like a throbbing migraine,
dissolving slowly in darkened
rooms.

 

It has come,
aggravating the senses
into a dizzying carnival of
emotions, spinning outrageously,
dervishes of destruction
unbent in devotion to
prevarication and dishonesties.

 

We know what is next,
what will have to be done
to preserve Democracy against
the tyrannical will of a profoundly
stupid narcissist. A shameful
history generations will have to
bear.

 

The weight is colossal,
and makes it hard to breath,
it makes it hard to give voice
for the voiceless;
Because that weight,
is the weight of us all,
and all of us, can bear it,
breathing together.

 

We, the people,
we will endure,
we will resist,
we will be on the right side
of history.