Oh, There I Am

I wondered where I went.
I wasn’t in the usual places.
Or with the usual people.
So I wasn’t sure where I was.

I hadn’t been around,

but I hadn’t gone anywhere,
I was nearby but pretty far
away.

I’d been quiet among the

noise,
disappeared against the din.
I was replaced by others.

Worry, stress, anxiety,

terror, immodesty, arrogance
and obstinacy filled out
what I had become.

The unhappy anger of being

out of control usurped my
rational choices and genuine
peaceful desires.

So this page was as empty

as I felt, until I remembered
I could fill it with anything,
and there I was, reflected.

So here I am, while I can.

For now.