She
placed her wine glass on the bar as she stared into the depths of her cell
phone. Her face was washed in the blue light of her phone. Her thumbs sliding
up and down over the small screen in a blur. She was not interested in the bar
room nonsense around her. The jukebox playing too loud. The random sports ball
game on the overhead TV’s. She was
focused entirely on the small screen in front of her scanning eyes.
Her loose
hair was drooped down the sides of her face, concealing her full visage from my
view. Which was likely for the best since I was already starting to feel like a
creep for watching her. I’d watched her since she confidently strode in and
took a seat at the bar. She quickly ordered her white wine from the bartender
and almost immediately dove into her phone. She’d barely put her small purse
down. I had thought to say something to her, but decided better of it. It
seemed rude to now try and interrupt her. She was there to do her thing and I
could see that I would be a bother if I tried to speak with her. I knew to
respect her space. Even if that space was eyeball deep in a flurry of text
messages.
The
bartender looked at her and then at me. He raised an eyebrow. I shook my head
as if to say, “No, not this one.” He understood. I pointed to my near empty
bottle of beer. He nodded again and dug out a fresh bottle from the cooler. He
opened it and placed it in front of me. I kept my unfinished beer in my hand. I
had to get every last drop otherwise it seemed like I was getting cheated. I
never let the bartenders take my bottle until it was completely empty. The bottom
is where the good stuff is.
I saw the flash of her arm as she
reached in front of her for her wine glass. She snatched it off the bar top and
took a quick, tight lipped sip. She put the glass back down in front of her.
Her eyes never left her phone screen. I looked at her. White sweater, nice but
not too dressy, tight jeans but again, not too dressy. Her dark hair seemed
black in the diminished lighting of the bar and in the silhouette of her
glowing phone screen. It could have been brown. She wore the ubiquitous tan
boots of the day. They looked new. She wore a few rings on her left hand, same
with her right. None of them looked like a wedding band, but then, I’ve been
fooled before. Her look was a mixture of serious but fun, of someone who seemed
like they could go out all night or go home early and be comfortable in their
clothes. I thought that was admirable. I
never know what to wear or when to go home.
I looked around the bar for
anything else to catch my eyes. I was actively seeking something, anything, to
keep from being bored to tears with how mundane I had let things become. I wasn’t
craving adventure or something obnoxious, but something at least interesting. Something
to break up the monotony of thought. The talking to myself every night in my
small apartment had started to gnaw at me. I was answering too often and
marveling at my own incredible insights into the vast wasteland of
bachelorhood. Some days it seemed like I talked to myself more then I spoke
with other people.
The bar was dead, except for
myself, the bartender and the woman. Yet, the jukebox was still too loud for
some reason. The music was that mix of unfamiliar and familiar, funky but
electronic, and all too loud. I motioned to the bartender that perhaps the
music was too loud for this small crowd. He nodded back, but didn’t change the
volume. He only did a little hip thrusting dance, smiled and returned to drying
the pint glasses. Which I didn’t understand as to why he was washing them since
there were only two patrons and neither was using a pint glass. I politely
smiled at his portly dance moves and took a final swig from my old beer bottle.
I looked at my own phone, to check
the time. I thought about how everyone had pocket watches again, although less
elaborate and with less winding involved. The night was still very early.
Hardly anything had happened yet. I didn’t know if it would. I glanced over at the woman sitting on her stool. She’d put her phone down for a moment and was vacantly looking up at the TV screens as Orange jersey college team played Blue jersey college team. Her hand was draped gently around the stem of her wine glass as she tapped the side with a ring. She never turned her head.
Hardly anything had happened yet. I didn’t know if it would. I glanced over at the woman sitting on her stool. She’d put her phone down for a moment and was vacantly looking up at the TV screens as Orange jersey college team played Blue jersey college team. Her hand was draped gently around the stem of her wine glass as she tapped the side with a ring. She never turned her head.
Her phone lit up from the top of
the bar. She scooped it up like it was prey and she was ravenous for a bloody kill.
Her thumbs returned to their fury as she tapped away. I thought about her
world. Or at least the world of space she was currently occupying. She was out
in the world but not a part of it. She was present but not there at all. I at
least felt like I was there, living in the moment. Even if the moment was
boring as hell. It was raw, real and truthful. I was alone and no amount of
phone interaction would change the present space I occupied.
I took a sip of my new beer and motioned for
the bartender.
“I think it’s whiskey o’clock,” I
said.
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