I wondered
about my
devotions
this morning on my drive to work,
what cause
am I willing to put
my life on
the line for,
what hill is
my grave?
I couldn’t
think of any.
Nothing good
anyway.
It all sounded
so bad to me.
So
depressing. So empty,
a vacuum of
joylessness.
Love? Meh. I’ve been hurt too often.
Family? Not
really a “cause”.
Morality? So
Subjective.
Religion?
Not a chance.
Poetry? It
isn’t as real as I would like.
Our selected
devotions,
the hills on
which we die
are all
inside our heads,
formless, yet
obtuse,
ridged, but
insufficiently carved.
I am devoted
to sitting,
begging for
sensual attention,
being
awkward,
putting my
needs before the needs of
others.
I am devoted
to selfishness,
only doing
what I want,
yet peaceably
existing to the best
of my
limited capabilities without
ruffling too
many feathers.
However, I
crave devotion from others;
a devotion
of attraction, of love, of encouragement,
of adoration
both near and far, and the incorrigible
need to be
happy with what I am without
judgment.
I am
apparently devoted to being human.
With all its
flaws. With all my flaws.
With flaws.
I’m devoted to learning
how to be
devoted to someone else.
And questioning
my devotions less as I drive to work.
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