Thursday, June 30, 2016

Molly's Summer

She hated the noise and smell of
the city streets in summer.
Car engines buzzing and roaring.
Charred and smoky asphalt,
the hot tar sizzled odor she
couldn’t shake from her nostrils.

She missed the sound of
the brook near her grandma’s
place, the rustling stillness of a
summer wind gracing the long
fields, the scent of flowers and
sweet pies at the fair.

A bus passed Molly and she
coughed in a cloud of diesel
exhaust. The air was thick and
grey.  The constant trumpeting
of car horns and wah-wahing sirens
piercing every echoed city canyon.

She longed for the sun; un-obscured
by the concrete pillars of business and
trade. She felt sad to walk in endless
shadows across long stretches of
hot city sidewalks. It was a weight
she bore heavily on her hunched shoulders.

She missed her jean shorts and tee-shirts,
running wild with Danny as they played
for hours near the old wood tree fort
near the Old Mill. They chased butterflies and
fireflies, and were never swallowed by any
long shadows.

Her city skin was pale, like she’d never once
been a tanned child of the sun. Her Danny,
out in the field, tanned, toned, laughing as
he sat on the back of a pick-up truck with a
cool lemonade in his hand.  Molly had an
iced Mocha latte something she’d spilled
when nudged by a rude businessman.

The city, crowded, serious, grey.
Molly hoped she could get out soon.
Hoped she could get back to her
open fields, sun dresses and barefoot
summer strolls guided by moonlight
and twinkling stars.



Wednesday, June 29, 2016

Stop Chasing Angels


We have to
stop chasing angels.

Like milkweed on the
wind.

Like dandelions on the
breeze.

We have to
stop chasing angels.

Like white cresting waves
on the sea.

Like smoke from a
warm fire.

We have to
stop chasing angels.

Like sand pouring between
our fingers.

Like time flashing before
our eyes.

We have to
stop chasing angels.

Besides, we wouldn’t know
what to do with one if we caught it.

Chase love, chase hope, chase our
better nature and leave the angels
alone. 

Tuesday, June 28, 2016

On the Wing


                The wind rustled the prairie grass that grew along the edges of the highway exit ramp. Harry stared out his driver’s side window as the long grass flittered in the wind. It had grown fast due to the recent heavy rains. A bird flew up from somewhere in the long prairie grass and up over the long line of cars in front of Harry. The bird landed on the roof of a white van and paused. Harry thought it was interesting that the bird had left the obvious natural safety of the tall grass to perch on the roof of a van that was waiting to make a left turn off the highway. It seemed dangerous to Harry. The bird was small, like a sparrow, but the feathers seemed much too black, too dark to actually be a sparrow. There was a little blue tuft of feathers under the bird’s beak. Harry had no idea what this bird could be. He didn’t know much about birds. He’d lived in the city his entire life and bird identification wasn’t exactly a popular class back in his college days. The bird sat relatively still on the roof of the white van, occasionally turning his head back and forth to scan for predators.

                Harry sighed and looked at the cars around him. He looked at the other drivers to see if they had also seen the bird fly onto the roof of the white van. Harry couldn’t tell if anyone else had noticed. They were all so distant. There was emptiness to the people behind the glass windshields. They didn’t look real to Harry. They looked like glossy images plastered on the glass itself. They didn’t move much. Or were moving too much as they spoke into the air. They were talking to hand free devices in their cars Harry was sure, but it didn’t make them look any less crazy to him.  

                The light changed to green and the van began to pull forward. The bird on the roof easily flew up and off into the morning sky.  Harry started his car forward in line with the other turning vehicles to the next stop light.  He wondered where that bird was going, where it was from, and why it had decided to show itself to him. Harry found the randomness in nature so strange. There was no pattern but there was, there was a seeming randomness to it all but it was all part of a larger system; a system that occasionally showed its glory in beaming sunsets, purple summer dusky skies, rosy fingered mornings and the majesty of itself. He wondered if anyone else had seen the bird or if it was something nature decided to show only to him.  

                Harry didn’t feel special though. He felt like a lucky witness. He felt that underneath the beauty of the bird, there was something tragic. He felt that while he was charmed to have seen that peculiar bird just at that moment, it was too fleeting, for him and the bird. It was only another moment in a long string of moments to be forgotten in the business of another day.


                A car honked somewhere behind Harry. The light had turned green and traffic was once again underway. Harry accelerated with the flow of the river of other cars. He changed the radio station. He played with the air vents. He remembered that he wanted to adjust his passenger side mirror at some point and then quickly forgot as the car in front of him came to a hard stop at another red light.  Harry looked out his driver’s side window and nothing seemed amazing.

Monday, June 27, 2016

Sleep Troubled

Words like punches
thrown at the rain.
Love’s invisibility
present in my brain.
An enemy still a friend,
a friend still an enemy.
My Bed.

No, that’s not it.
None of it.
That’s not it at all.

It’s dreams.
Long tiring dreams.
Stirring me with confused
messages, blurry meanings
and nonsense that lingers
like smoke after a fire.

Old loves mashed with familiar
fears, between the uncertainty of
jumbled dreamy flashes, mixed,
swirled in colorful menageries of
tropical horrors.

I did not sleep, but lulled about
in a prolonged memory, flavored
with items of the present and
concerns of the future. To toss
and turn in mind and body.

My eyes were closed but I could
still see the trouble of choices,
past humiliations, embarrassments.
The ghosts. I could see the ghosts.
And they haunted my lulled mind.

The invisible, the indistinct, the

foggy, they danced, in the rain. 

Thursday, June 23, 2016

I've had some thoughts on this...


I guess what baffles me, really baffles me about the gun control conversation is the strange disconnect between disparate views of public safety. One side thinks stricter control over weapons is in the public's best interest, while another feels that any infringement on the public's ability to legally obtain weapons is the real risk to public safety. I don't quite get it. I think Family Guy put this argument best when they made a joke about Charlton Heston, then face of the NRA. He was accidentally shot by Joe Swanson in "Love Thy Trophy", who said the safety on the gun was on. In his dying words, Mr. Heston explained that it was his right as an American before collapsing in the street.

I often wondered about the message of that animated scene and how on point it was. It made me wonder, if the real life Charlton Heston had been shot by a mentally unstable person screaming about Allah who had legally obtained an AR-15, what the NRA’s or Republican party’s reaction would have been. Would they have agreed with the animated Charlton saying it was indeed the right of the mentally unstable person to legally obtain a firearm and then use it with unbalanced impunity? Or would they mourn the loss of their spokesperson and attempt to create legislation that would help keep dangerous people from obtaining firearms through comprehensive background checks? Or create a special department within say, the ATF, for the monitoring of weapon licensing for individuals?

            I just don’t know what they would do. I know that as a reasonable person, when I see that there is a problem I would like to try and takes steps to correct that problem. It seems pretty simple. I can see that there has to be some balance to it all. I know in this country we are all innocent until proven guilty and no person can deny the rights of another just because they are suspicious about their intentions; although you don’t give a drunk a beer, or crack to an addict and tell them to hope for the best.  We do have some level of good judgment we should adhere to. Yet, for some reason, good, sound judgment seems to run contrary to what some of the people want as a matter of law.

            That’s why I’m so confused about the arguments about what is public safety? I mean, the Federal Government, through the FDA, had no problem banning all homosexuals from donating blood due to the perceived threat of the spread of AIDS in the 1980’s. They had no problem with it. They didn’t even know for sure how AIDS was spread but they had no problem as a “matter of public safety” to ban all Homosexuals from blood donations. Yet they don’t consider mass shootings a threat to public safety and refuse to take any sensible action about it. I mean, maybe the numbers aren’t there to consider it a public health hazard. Since Sept. 11, 2001, there have been 418 people killed in mass shootings. So maybe we haven’t hit an epidemic threshold yet.

            What is better for the people of this country? Is it to live in fear of the gun or to take hold of that fear and manage it as a matter of public safety? I’ve made this case before, after nearly every shooting, mass shooting or even individual shooting and nothing has changed. I’ve supported Gun Control Advocacy groups, written to my representation in government and nothing has changed. I’m baffled on what to do next. And I fear that’s just how it is living in America.

            A peaceful, intelligent society should be above resorting to firearms to resolve their differences, perceived slights, or in your face insults. A population focused on what really is in the best interest of Public Safety should overcome the self-interest of a few loud voices. Yet, here I am again, back to two differing views of the definition of Public Safety.  The Federal Definition of Public Safety is, “Public Safety refers to the welfare and protection of the general public. It is usually expressed as a governmental responsibility. Most states have departments for public safety. The primary goal of the department is prevention and protection of the public from dangers affecting safety such as crimes or disasters. In many cases the public safety division will be comprised of individuals from other organizations including police, emergency medical services, fire force etc.”

            So that seems pretty straightforward. And yet again, I’m stymied by the argument that firearms are not a public safety hazard, crazy people are the public hazard or extremist fundamentalists are the public hazard, and that weapons are just tools misused by the crazies. A hammer is a tool designed specifically to drive in nails, firearms are weapons designed to drive ammunition into other people. Sure, you could use a hammer as a weapon, that’s possible, but it’s still specifically a tool. It’s not recommended to use a weapon as a tool for driving in nails or unclogging a sink. Plus there haven’t been 418 mass hammer beatings since 9/11. So let’s say that argument is now moot. 

            Individual freedoms under the Constitution trump any societal freedoms of the citizenry? I’ve heard that argument before regarding firearms. The right to bear arms is more valued than an individual’s right not to get shot by a lunatic. So maybe that’s the real threat to public safety right there. The perception that the Second Amendment was given to us by Jesus and no one shall ever take it from our cold dead hands. I think I got it. Maybe, in the course of our right to pursue happiness, we might need a tweak to the Second Amendment as it relates to life in the 21st Century. I think as a matter of Public Safety that might be the best course of action. 

It was relentlessly repeated to me as youngster that the Constitution is an elastic document and it is not carved in stone. The Constitution can be changed as it has been several times in the course of our young country. Slavery, votes for women, prohibition, the repeal of prohibition, votes for 18 year olds, were all changes made to the Constitution over the course of history. It is possible to adapt and evolve as a country as long as we’re willing to agree on the public safety threat this complicated issue has and actively do something about it.  


But what to do? How do we come to a consensus? Where is the middle ground we can all agree on and encourage our elected officials to agree on? What can we do? I wish I knew. I wish we all knew. 

Something in the Closet?

The monster under the bed
is bored.
The slime creature in the closet
is filing his…slime.
The zombies in the graveyard
are bonking into each other.

The ghosts have dropped their
chains and just watch TV.
The werewolves are looking into
real estate in a “nice” neighborhood.
The vampires are on a strict
vegan diet. 

The Creature from the Black Lagoon
is considering relocating to Clear Lake.
Dr. Frankenstein is a share holder in a
pharmaceutical manufacturer.
His monster is on the board of
directors.

The Mummy is gathering dust
in the museum, in a dust pan, he works there.
The Demons of ancient lore have a
reality show and production takes up
way too much time for possessions.
You’ve probably seen it.

The terrors of the past have
nothing left to do. So they sit,
looking into retirement communities,
checking their 401k’s, and hoping
the damn grand-kids might call
and tell them how scary the world really is.  


Monday, June 20, 2016

First Day of Summer


The first day of summer
arrives like a maniac to a
dinner party he wasn’t
invited to but everyone
expected.

His eyes are wild,
his hair is a mess,
he yells a lot, he wants
to play electric guitar
while surfing.

He makes it hard to sit
around the dinner table,
the butter softens, chairs
are sticky. Everyone is
slightly uncomfortable.

But he’s always forgiven.
Women love him.
Men want to be him.
Children run to him like
he’s made of candy.

He wants to stay up late,
he wants to listen to the
ocean at midnight and the
wind blow over the fields,
He tells dirty jokes.

He’s never wrong,
yet he can be ceaselessly cruel,
and go on for endless hours telling
stories that have no point over warming
beers and fruity island drinks.

He smokes, he stalls, he lingers,
he tickles, he teases, he incites
revolution, he demands attention,
he encourages nudity, he needs
basking.

He’ll come to the party,
get everyone laughing and
as soon as everyone is nice and
comfortable with him, used to him;
he’ll leave.

In his wake are summer flings,
several poor choices, sun burns,
empty wallets, liver failure,
riots, chaos and general unease.
And we can’t wait till he shows up again.