Thursday, December 28, 2023

And So It Goes

 


And so it goes,

another year passes

us by in the blink

of an eye.

And I hardly remember

most of it.

 

It was a good year,

if memory serves me,

life has sort of settled

down in a good way,

and it’s all entirely

… good.

 

There’s no more late

nights at a bar, sipping

sorrows from whiskey,

as sexy couples twirled

across imaginary dance floors

and bartenders loved me.

 

No staring at pulsing neon signs,

illuminating the dark confines of

old man bars, rife with crusty

opinions and dizzying conversations

about life, religion, or politics.

 

Another year freed from the

shackles of intolerable loneliness

and depression.

No dark valleys of the mind,

crowded with the melancholy thoughts

of the perpetually alone.

 

Untroubled, but still…,

troubled with the state of the World,

race, religion, politics, sex, booze,

and all the tidbits that seems to

fill up every year.

 

There’s something about the past

year, something that retrospectively

seems inherently good, but I couldn’t

tell you any specifics, it was just,

a good year, like fine wine or old

cheese. And so it goes.


Monday, December 11, 2023

Meh at Best

 


I haven’t felt the ink

in my veins for a while,

as it were.

The urge to mash these

words onto the page,

has been, “meh” at best.

 

It’s okay to have a period

wherein the awesome magic

of prose seems to dwindle for

a time. Where things don’t seem

so fantastic or awe inspiring.

 

When things are just,

“meh”, or, “So-so”, or

just “blah”.

Manilla, milquetoast,

bland, without form

or structure.

 

Amebic,

a great sedentary blob,

of ennui and

laissez-faire,

curling the fingers into

mitts, rather than flying

over the keyboard with aplomb.

 

I get the sense that I’ve

said it before,

it’s been said before,

what ever it is that needs to be said,

has been, to whomever needed

to hear it.

 

Yet there’s still something,

thumping in my chest,

an irritated beating,

a thudding anxiety,

begging for my fingers,

to uncurl and unleash

their typing terrors.

 

But then,

“Meh”.