Here I Am

There I am.

Just where I was.

In the middle of nothing.

Surrounded by everything.

I was there, the whole time.

I just sort of forgot that I was there.

Doing nothing, with nothing to do.

Engulfed in a World of possibilities.

I’m not sure if I was lost in

daydreams of summer days,

late night loves and long boozy

conversations about the state of things.

Or if I disappeared into the background

of someone else’s life, an extra in the

movie of some other random character,

who is now the star of it all.

I was certainly there though.

Somewhere, dancing, drinking, smoking,

in the background, acting like the life of

the party or the destroyer of it.   

Aware of being there, but not paying

any attention to my presence.

A blip on the radar screen, but not

really there.

I am still there though.

Taking up space. Filling the void.

Making faces at babies and trying

not to be bitter, bored or belligerent.

Here I am.

Don’t fret.

I’m not going anywhere.

So it would seem…